I am just a few weeks into being a military wife. The depth of the meaning of “military spouse” has not yet quite caught up to me. I am still in the newlywed “honeymoon” stages. Of being married and being a military wife. I’ve got my “Army Wife” bumper sticker, license plate, key chain, mugs and hat! But am I really prepared for the responsibilities that this job carries?
I just finished reading “Going Overboard: The Misadventures of a Military Wife” by Sarah Smiley. She tells about her experiences, and shortcomings, during her husband’s sudden deployment. I think this book was good for me. It helped me understand a little more what it’s like. How it will be when my husband is 7000+ miles away for 12 months!
Every day is one day closer to the day he leaves. Every day is one day closer to the day that half my heart will be separated from me. Every day is precious to me because I am dreading that day. I don’t even know when THAT DAY is! They have told us what month. But it could be any day that month.
We have to start packing our apartment up. I am moving back to Nashville so I don’t feel COMPLETELY alone for a year. I want to have the majority of our things packed up because I will be moving after he deploys. Meaning I will be an emotional WRECK! I am NOT looking forward to that. IT WILL SUCK! Nevertheless, we are packing. (I AM looking forward to getting out of this crappy apartment!) We also have to pack the stuff he is taking with him. I think it has to ship out sometime next month. EEK! HOW do you pack for a YEAR!?! That is so overwhelming to me. They have given him a list of things to pack, but how do you pack stuff other than your military gear for twelve months?! I just don’t know.
This is what I am going through. My daily thoughts. I lay in bed at night thinking about tons of things. Not able to go to sleep. It is so frustrating. How am I going to be able to sleep when he is not in the bed with me?