I try not to think about it anymore than I have to. But it’s like this dark rain cloud following me everywhere, waiting to burst.
MY HUSBAND WILL BE GONE FOR A YEAR!!
The closer it gets, the more real it feels. He’s packing his stuff, making piles of stuff for me to send him.
I can’t sleep.
I lay in bed for hours. My mind going a hundred miles a minute. It doesn’t stop.
What do I do?!
I have so many amazing people in my life, friends, family, other military wives. They are all telling me that I’m strong. I will be ok. I can do a lot while he’s gone. Go to school, volunteer, lose weight, etc. And I know that I can and will do those things. And more. I’m not worried about those times.
I’m worried about the times when I’m at home. Alone. That’s when the tears will come.
Heck, they do now! This is so hard.
This is me. Honest.
Honey B. says
Ohh Sarah Ruth….I’m so sorry, I wish I could say something that would help! I have no good words, but I promise you have lots of friends in the blogosphere to support you… *hugs*
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Sarah baby, my heart is heavy for you. I can’t say that I understand how you feel because I don’t. And I wish I knew what to tell you, but I don’t because I know that those times will not be easy. I do know that your other friends are right. You are strong. You will do this not on your own, and not only with friends and family by your side, but through Christ. His strength alone will get you through. Continue to focus on Him. I love you! Know that if you’re ever home alone and sad, you can call me! If you need someone to chat with to break the silence, call me! I am praying for you!
My dad was in the military and gone for lonnnngggg periods of time and it was awful! The longest he was gone was 10 months, but a year WOW! That is a long time. Mom always said the most difficult time for her was the last few weeks before he left. They tried to enjoy the days they had.
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Michelle M. says
Repeat after me: you will be fine! Brian was gone to Afghanistan for a whole year, and I’m still kicking and screaming. I had my days (weeks, especially the first few) where I cried and wanted to do nothing but eat ice cream and watch tv. If that is what you need to do, than it’s okay to do that. Just don’t do that for a whole year=not good. It’s not easy, but it’s do-able. Take it one day at a time, one step at a time. Cross off each day of the calander that he is gone and think that it is just one day closer to seeing him over leave or when he comes home. You can’t keep thinking about him being gone, it will drive you nuts. I thought about it so much that I almost flunked a class in nursing school. Keep yourself busy, surround yourself with your friends and family. Do what you love. It will be okay. You will hear from him more than you think. I was lucky enough to talk to Brian everyday sometimes, and email becomes your best friend. I have known you since we were teeenagers and I know that you can do this and get through it. Quit thinking about it now and enjoy him while he’s still with you. Make memories now while he’s here so you can think about all the fun things you did while he is gone. Trust me. I love you and you’re gonna be alright!
Jen @ After The Alter says
I just wanted to send you some hugs. I can’t imagine what you are going through…but I wanted to send some internet support. ***hugs*** You will make it through. Sometimes when I look back on struggles in my life I try to remind myself that in the scheme of our whole life 1 year is VERY small. It seems so big righ tnow, but someday you will look back and it will all be but a distant memory…
What an incredible opportunity to get in touch with yourself a bit more and be alone and hear your own mind, etc..I think it will be so fun for you! Girl, of course you can do this! It will be so strenghtening and an opportunity many married people don’t get to have.
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