One Week Down
It’s been one week since my sweetheart got sent to the desert. The first couple of days were really hard on me. But my parents, sister and my stepdaughter have been keeping me busy. Which I am SO grateful for! Well, my stepdaughter flew home yesterday. So this week may be harder for me.
I have many projects to keep me busy. For example: unpacking from our move, hanging pictures on walls, putting up the vinyl letters that we (my sister and I) bought, getting hubby’s care packages ready, organizing the house, filing important papers, filing stuff for my sister, making an “Army Life” notebook, putting my sister’s new shelves together, working out at the YMCA, etc, etc, etc. Not to mention visiting my grandparents and my bestie! So yeah, trying to keep busy!
I have noticed that I’m holding my emotions in. I know this is bad for me. At the same time, I don’t want to be wallowing in my sorrow all the time! How can I find a happy (or sad) medium?
One of my favorite shows is “Army Wives”. It’s such a great show! However, I did not watch it last week. I saw the previews for that episode. The one airing on the day my sweetheart left. The previews for that episode showed all the main character’s husbands/son deploying. I know my own limits and I knew I would have to wait to watch it. But today I WANTED to watch it. I knew I would cry, so that helped get some of my emotions out. But then the show ended and started focusing on some of my projects. Making a menu for meals to cook for the next few weeks. Making a schedule for myself. As well as talking to other Mil Spouses on a support forum. Needless to say, I started feeling better.
On to week two.
My family is built on five generations of Marines. I’ve deployed my dad as a child, my ex-husband, and my son….multiple times.
Never gets easier.
My heart goes out to you Sarah. Be strong and as you strive to be strong, the strength truly will come. You want to be strong for him so that he can concentrate on what he needs to be doing. If he is concentrating on you, it’s a distraction. So very tough to do, I know.
Hugs to you my friend. Forge ahead and be brave.
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I am trying to be strong. Some days it’s easy, some days it’s not. But I don’t want him to worry about me.
Sarah, I can not begin to imagine what you’re feeling, and I won’t pretend that I understand…I don’t. But, I do know that God never gives us anything that He doesn’t give us the strength and tools necessary to handle it. You WILL get through this. I can’t give you any advice on what to do since I’ve never been in your shoes, but I am sending prayers your way. Love you!
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Thanks sweetie. Thanks for not trying to understand.
I can’t stand when people say they understand when they really don’t. I extremely appreciate your prayers!! I would love if we could get together sometime!!
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I’m sorry you are so down. I can only imagine how hard it is
I’m glad your family is helping and you are trying to keep busy. Lots of hugs!
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Thanks girl. Today was much better. I got an email from hubby this morning. Kinda made my day!